I just feel bad

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Stephan Bouwman, a radiomaker at a Dutch radio station, needs something to say from his heart and he is sure that he is not the only one. He wants to break a taboo: “I just feel bad.”

Emotionally, Stephan talks about the ‘voice in his head that says ‘how ugly I am’ and the feeling ‘never to do something right’. According to the 27-year-old DJ, there is a ‘backward taboo’ on showing negative feelings. Notice this as a ‘cry for attention’, he says. ‘Not only for myself but for everyone who suffers from it.’